it’s been a month.
i’ve never gone this long without talking to you.
i had to remove your name from the family group updates for lily
because your phone is no longer in service.
i have to resave your last voicemail to me
because fucking tmobile thinks that i want it gone.
i had to stop getting updates from your name
because everyone has a story about you and needs to tell it.
i can’t bring myself to call granma
because your voice is still on the answering machine
how stupid was i to think that
when i broke up with my
on-again, off-again
high school boyfriend
that I knew what loss and heartbreak felt like.
nothing compares to this.
i miss you so much.
i just hope that
XXX XXXX XX XXX
Etudes and Requiems 