to be needed
is because being wanted
never lasts and
i wish i figured this out
about 100k in psych treatment ago.
i could have taken a trip
some far-flung destination
five star accommodation
in the heart of everything
a tourist could want,
so i could fire up my laptop
and spend the time watching
friday night dinner again.
sort of how my life is now
except more interesting
and aesthetically pleasing
for the Instagram grid.
Etudes and Requiems 